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A Conversation with Myself
Pain, darkness, more pain, sharp, what’s wrong with my leg? Something on my face. Stabbing, shooting pain. What is that taste? Dark stains, it’s sticky on my face. What is that? The air bag!? And, blood! What happened? Shattered glass, the lights are on. A tree. Smoke, there must be fire. Oh no! Three C’s, Three C’s. Gotta get out, gotta open this door! Calm down! It’s stuck. PUSH! PUSH! It won’t move. PUSH HARDER! Have to calm down. Check for flames. Don’t see any. The smoke isn’t getting worse, There’s gotta be flames. Don’t worry about that, push that door open! It moved. It moved again! PUSH DAMNIT, PUSH HARDER! What happened? It doesn’t matter, OPEN THAT DOOR! No flames, I can breathe ok. Maybe there isn’t any fire. Just get that door open. How bad am I hurt? Don’t worry about that, You can find out after. There. It moved again! Push! There. It’s open. It’s not enough. It has to be enough. Pull. Pull, reach out and grab to get leverage. Good. Pull again. Half through. Ok, again. One more time should do it. Breathe. You’re out. No flames. Stand up and check it. Nauseating, horrible pain. What happened? Get back up. Ahh! More pain! Something is wrong with my leg. Check it. It’s not my thigh. Lower. There. There it is. Is it broken? It must be. That’s, that’s bone? Gotta be. That’s why I can’t stand. Check for flames. No flames. Call 911. No service. Try anyway. Nothing. Try again! Nothing. There’s got to be! Try it AGAIN! Nothing. SCREAM FOR HELP! Echoes. HELP! Echoes. Listen, was that a response? What else is wrong? Scream again! No one is going to hear. You’re dying. I can’t. It’s her birthday. You will. I won’t. Please, God, not on her birthday. Too much blood. No. I can’t. I can make. At least until tomorrow. Not likely. I have to. Then scream! There. Again. Louder! Where’s the nearest house? Too far. Stand up and look. Your leg is broken. In half. I have to, use the car. Pull. Your going to make it worse. I have to figure out where a house is, I can use their phone. There. Is that a house. Yes. You can’t stand, how will you get there. I’ll do it. Ahhhhhhhhhhh! You can’t do this. You’ll make it worse. I can’t die. Not tonight! You’re going to. No. I’ll crawl. You’re going to die I have to make it until tomorrow You won’t, you're too badly hurt She turned two today I can crawl to that house and call from there You’ll never make it I have to try, I don’t want her growing up knowing I died on her birthday You think I’m going to die? Yes I have to be calm, I can make it to that house How? I’ll crawl Did you feel that? Yes The bones are broken in half I know, I feel it You’re going to go into shock How long do you think? Before you get to the house I have to make it Yell for help Hellllllllp!!!!! Keep doing it I will after I move one more foot it’s getting worse It’s not as bad as before the shock is setting in It’s the adrenaline It’s shock A few more feet and I’ll rest Hellllllllllp! Hellllllllp! Just wait for help to arrive in the morning I can’t it will be too late, I’m close Not that close I can make it You’re close, take a nap I’m cold You’ve been shivering for awhile now I know The blood loss and Shock I’m close Are those stairs? Looks like it What are you going to do? I can make it How will you get in? Don’t know, I’ll figure it out Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! Did you feel that? Yes You’re going to make your leg worse I have to do it You’re getting dizzy, you're going to pass out I can’t there’s the last step There, I can rest Yell again Not yet, I want to rest, I’m cold The shivering is getting worse I know, I wish I could warm up You're getting hypothermia Shouldn’t be long now How will you get in? There's a glass door, I can try that You think it will be open Maybe Doubtful Reach You can’t I can, there I got it it won’t open It might nope, not budging There’s another one, I can try that it will be the same I have to try, I can’t die, not tonight it’s useless Almost there, this one is locked too I told you I have to find a way in and get to the phone just wait til morning I can’t, I can’t die, it’s her birthday Your going to No You will HELPPPPPPPPPPPPP it’s no use You’ve been out here for hours now I need to find a way in, I’ll just rest a minute Go to sleep I can’t I’m too cold, just for a minute Wait what’s that…it’s broom handle maybe You can break the glass door Maybe hit it HARDER HARDER You’re going to have to stand up and do it Ahhhhhhhhhhh Hit it! I am HARDER I have break it You have to hit it HARDER! I am it’s not going to break It should it won’t It has to how many times are You going to do it, it won’t It should it’s not It will nope Damn it, I have to rest take a nap I can’t I might not wake up you’re going to die anyway
Please, God, just don’t let me die tonight, let me stay at least until morning, Please You think He’s gonna do something for You? God, please don’t let me die tonight, just one more day WAIT, that’s a window You can break that, use the broomstick IT BROKE! I did! Hit it again There it did again now stand up and clear it out Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh You have to stand up Now clear it out and out Your jacket over it There How will you get in? I’m going to have to get my leg in first how? I’ll put it up first and hop to the window You’re going to make Your leg worse I’m almost in now You’re in the window, how will You get down? I’ll have to drop in goodluck Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh now what? Find a phone its pitch black Use my cell phone across the room, there’s red light It must be the charger on the phone get over there Crawl DAMNIT Ok…gimme a minute You’re almost there, You can get help! I know almost there a few more feet Almost there get in the chair There pick up the phone, what are you waiting for? I just thought of something What? What if the service is turned off? Try it I can’t hit the button, it must be on But what if..? try it There dial tone… It works! 9-1-1 New Hampshire 911 what is your emergency? I’ve had an accident
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