I am that barbed mental arrow
against the tension of the bow--
of the bow I made of myself.
I feel such suspended tension in the bow,
such tension in the bow,
and I ache for the release,
the chance to be let go.
To be flung
far and high--
to seek, to strike, my target
with all my might;
to flee the tension,
the tension of the bow.
When I am with you,
a shade of passion as soft as petals,
shower down on me, nearly making me swoon…
They say shades of purple are the only hues
the unborn child can see through the womb;
Its comfortable oblivion
Is from the passion that has been,
And is perhaps all we seek
In the passion that will be.
I feel so calm—like rain.
I feel no pain---
Muted by this veil of rain
Rain of tears,
All my pain.
My father’s parents’ house is silent, but not free peace.
A thick, hunter green carpet lies,
always vacuumed to perfection.
On it stand elegantly curved legs
of elegantly carved tables;
staid and stable stand these legs
and the legs of the chairs—
upholstered to round, soft looking shapes
that are yet hard and unyielding, like rigid muscles.
But these muscles are aging saffron
and need buttons to hold them together.
The living room is the epitome of the home.
Statuettes of porcelain birds, roses, and saccharine
little vases are moved from time to time
from one end table to another.
But one ornament always stays in the center
of the room--the coffee table’s prize.
It is a domed, sealed glass bulb, full of dried,
faded yellow flowers, with a butterfly
on a shriveled petal.
Copyright © 2012 Catharine Otto
|Catharine Otto is a poet,
holistic healing professional, classically trained soprano
and visual artist. Her poems have appeared in the former
NeoVictorian/Cochlea, in Decanto, in which she is
a regular contributor, and in University of Maryland’s
The Constellation, with upcoming poems to be published
in Avocet and Decanto. An article on the
healing art of Usui Reiki, of which Catharine is a Master
Teacher, is scheduled to appear in the next issue of
Today’s Spiritual Woman, an American e-zine. She also
has performed in operas and had artwork exhibited in Tyme
Gallery in Pennsylvania. Catharine has a BA in English
Literature and is a member of American Mensa; she plans on
pursuing post graduate studies in psychology next year, with
the ultimate goal of a new, complementary career in clinical